Through Fire

There is always an ongoing celestial collision of monstrous beings creations inside the universe of your mind, raring to blast through, raring to come out, raring to crash out of your mind into that which is uninhibited. broken thoughts, feelings that remain but never go away, stories that never happen, endings that preclude through the beginnings- that is how your life reflects back at you.  You curse your life, the darkness that is saddled along. It is said that You are the God of Your World. You are the demon of your mind. And if there is an entire World with all its cosmic fabrications inside of you - how are we supposed to handle it? How can we control it?

You cant bear the thought of it. You would curse life, and a withering want would boil inside- tyo break out, to shout, to kill. Is that what we have got? Is that what life really is? A chronicle of events which no one will be bothered with. Isn't it better to look it the other way, into the darkness? Or is it better to not look at all, and to contemplate the opposite - death?

But of course it becomes essential to first give the proper definition of death and darkness. Death is our constant fellow traveler - staring right at us where ever we may be. It is the end to all the circles we want to form. But what is death? It is the fundamental truth that has bound the world onto a single thread. That what we all have to face - that which we cant run away from, its going to be with us always. All of us have considered death to be an illustrious solution at one point or the other. There must have been a single moment when you would have thought of death - be it in a morbid way, or at a suicidal level - as an option. But death can catch upon us in life.The ideal question is can we die before we die?

But then what is life ? Is it beautiful? Is it scarred? Is it a bleak false image? Every person has a want to unscramble the meaning of life which he gets in his subconscious. A mystery which you were born with and which goes on until the end.Life just happens to be a multidimensional entity inside our minds - each moment differing from the other in its viewpoint , each of differing intensity than the other. And it is then when our minds go through an inner fire. Uncontrolled. Unabrred. It is then when the moving waters of the river of life stands still that death takes over. Stagnant Life is death.

All the famous science hooligans agree to this truth that our what we see , what we hear, what we hear - all rounds off to the point of view . Life is just as we see it. It may wobble, it may run, it may flow away. But it has a final tendency to settle down into a stable flow. It goes through fire and water at the same time. So it be contained. It has to go about when it has to. That is what the real unsolved truth is. It is through fire. It is through water. It is what you want it to be. The question is : Can you live when you live?

Hurt

I hurt myself today,
To see if I still feel,
I focus on the pain,
The only thing that's real,

The needle tears a hole,
The old familiar sting,
Try to kill it all away,
But I remember everything,

What have I become,
My sweetest friend,
Everyone I know,
Goes away in the end,

And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt,
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt,

I wear this crown of thorns,
Upon my liars chair,
Full of broken thoughts,
I cannot repair,

Beneath the stains of time,
The feelings disappear,
You are someone else,
I am still right here,

And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt,
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt,

If I could start again,
A million miles away,
I will keep myself,
I would find a way.


- Trent Reznor

Why I want to hate Facebook

You are connected - this appears to have become the punchline of the present of our digital world. And the talisman behind this very renewed idea of connecting a single person (or in digital language 'user') to the entire pool of information in the world filled up by other singular reflective beings of the society, was the internet. the idea was simple - you will get plugged into this world. or this is a world which can only be when plugged in. you will enter, watch, learn, take and after a point give. the idea was simple - combine the economical idea of the ancient business idea of give and take with the Marxist notions of equality, individuality, supreme power to the individual. And the internet talked about doing just that - we would have search engines replace encyclopedias, online blogs replacing newspapers, you could argue if you want on an idea in this, and more so give an idea to the other - at no cost, be it economical or personal. And this did win - this had to win, the past twenty odd years witnessed the rise of the internet, which I would like to call as the modern age revolution. This was the world where absolutely everything worked on to get perfect. Whilst the world may be losing resources one one end - this was a brave new world resourceful and methodical in every sense ( be it tech, science, sex, movies, etc. etc.).

All this was what I got to see about 5-6 years ago. Internet - the figure of the modern world. You open up to a world invisible to your own. The sad part is five years later - it has become your world. And the proprietor is probably the entity which resides to be the most used tab of almost every person reading this - Facebook. You walk facebook, you talk facebook. Going online has become a form of a ritual today,  but when you do there are probably a very few sites you would care to visit. Internally, almost every person has a want of making his world as simple as possible. But when you do, Facebook is probably the first website a person is deemed to visit. Read my definition of the term 'target audience' as mainly the college goers and high school grads who 'faced - off' with the ever changing face of social networking during the past decade or so ( myspace to orkut to facebook or twitter). And this target audience grew to expand in a much more draconian way than any epidemic. The thing was - this 'virus' had to spread. Here the host wanted the virus itself.

 The need - exploited
The tragedy is that an idea, which transgressed the basic philosophy of the innovation called internet - a platform where you could get information, (as in every case of internet) - but about people in your lives or people you meet up or people whom you may have forgot in your past; delved deep into the insight of the sensitive side of the humane nature of the 'user'. This was the side which made you want things in life- unmaterialistic ( you would say friendship or love, but I argue it is something far more trivial). This is a desire which is the root cause of probably all relationships that a person makes in life. To be considered a person of a society. To have people in your life who would be affected by  what you say or think or do. You want others to see what you see in life - this can be related to an evolutionary characteristic of show casing superiority about your self. About your life. Maybe our lives give us little chance of doing that. And then there was Facebook.


The False image
We love lying about what we really are. Here was a source so deeply established in the internet world that we would forget we are lying about ourselves. And so was with the facebook 'profiles' or the new 'timeline' dubbed as 'the story of your life' (the comparison of a single page to something more far fetched). So we showed off here in ways we wanted the world to see us. Our beautiful selves showed off on a webpage. Your mind would always get a tinge of tasteful happiness when you would see a 'like' or an awe ridden 'comment'.  There was a new level unopposed competition with these - 'Abey tune mera pic like nai kiya!'.  This made us sink in. We could satisfy ourselves to others - the need to connect. And this made us become hazardous to a dangerous addiction.

For it becomes difficult to come back to our real worlds when we are in a fantasy. And Facebook helped us create a fantasy world - our very own. You would unconsciously compare a person's social presence by the staggering number in his friend list. You can find people posting every single shit crossing their minds as their 'status'. You yourself love to post that shit. You want everyone to see your shit.

The wrong connection
With the new time of cult favorite mobile phones, of high megapixel cameras, of the tool, which has now come to have a language of its own, was Facebook. It was a spiritual connection, convened much before their existences, culminating into establishing a new face of the society. You would go online to see what a person is doing, to talk with that person, to establish a connection in this new faced society. The thing is, that connection happens to be virtual. You have new friendships being rejuvenated online.You have relations made and relations broken online. You have compassion being stewed online. Have we come to make all of these parts of human nature so artificial? Or was it all always such a joke?

You would remain online looking about what those people do whom you will probably never ever see in life. And you would come again and again. This was the digital portion of your life.
The question is not why Facebook came out to be this big, but rather is if we can make ourselves accept our real selves and perfect the imbecile bond between our real lives and our Facebook lives. Or if we even want to.
All of this makes me want to hate Facebook to its fullest. The trouble is : I'm addicted.

My ten pics of 2011

last year was a mixed one for movies. rather than having  movies which could make the quintessentially observing audience wonder about the making and leaving a mark, this was the year of wasted and forced sequels. not got a story - pick it up from a pervious one - obviously the contemplated audience have always loved to watch again what they already have. so we hadpirates : on stranger tides, fast five, chipwrecked, final destination 5, etc. 

the makers, though, can be proud to have re-introduced the slow moving cinema style, something which we havent seen in past years. here's my 10 best list of 2011, not includig movies like the artistand the tree of life which i cant bear to watch. also i havent seen hugo and the girl with dragon tattoo, thanks to the release date in our country.

10. Warrior

we saw the fighter last year and it reminded us of rocky. however here came a movie on boxing which just took it to the next level.  yes, the drama involved in two brothers facing off in a final has not been done enough justice and the father's role is overrated. But, its the moments in boxing that catch your eye. tom hardy is the find of the movie. the role of a silent, damaged boxer with a troubled past has been done to perfection by hardy while at the same time depicting a ruthless boxer with no repect for rules and traditions. cant wait to see him in dark knight rises.

9. X men : first class

Matthew Vaughn did it again. he suprised us with Kick Ass and he has outdone himself this time. this was the best movie of the X men franchise and is probably one of the best prequels ever. Michel Fassbender delivers and how! you simply love it when one of the main characters has an evil inside and Fassbender does show the broken emotions of Erik Leshnerr just fine while he is on a path of rampant vengence. James Mcavoy doesnt fit in to the character of Charles Xavier, but it is Fassbender's movie from beginning to end. A good negative role by kevin bacon makes the movie one to remeber for.

8. The Adventures of Tintin : The Secret of the Unicorn

we had great expectations from this spielberg venture. I personally thought that this could have been another one of his land mark franchises la Indiana jones or jurrasic park.  Boasting of the the best directors, a brillint cast and two best script writers of our time with a born to do cast, this was the most awaited movie of the year. and this one did deliver : you couldnt help to fall in love with snowy, you had to love the drunk potryal of Haddock (Andy Serkis did it again ) and the breath of adventure from the word go and the wonderful 3 D effects. but yes, this movie did fall short from what it could have been. yes we loved it, but this was sure no Indiana Jones.

7. Sherlock Holmes : A game of Shadows

This resident of 221B Baker Street has beeen with us for a long time. we've interpreted him and his mind in severa ways, but Guy Ritchie had a unique place for him in his world. Of course we've seen what Guy Ritchie's world is with Snatch and Lock stock and two smokin barrels. it is repitive but u cant resist to fall for it. What stands out is his ability to redo what he does. and so happens here. with the second movie whilst you can be critical or overshowing of Holmes' apparent love for disguises, you have two appreciate the adrenaline punching style of the englishman. the action sequeces have been nothing short of great and Jared Harris does the role of Professor Moriarty just fine. With Hans Zimmer's score, this was 'the' popcorn entertainment of the year.  

6. Kung fu Panda 2

ever does a sequel outdo its predescessor and make you crave for the next one with its final shot. our favorite panda returned to perfect himself with inner peace. With the success of the second movie you cn argue that dis is one of the best animation franchises we've seen over the years. and with some fantastic 3 D effects this movie stood out for not not being one solely for kids but equally entertaining for adults. 

5. The Ides of March

2011 belonged to Ryan Gosling. And you wouldnt root for George Clooney directing a political thriller abouta n idealist staffer getting to face the politics in its true game. But this movie was out to surprise you. Gosling does the role of the new staffer to perfection and apart from a slow tight screenplay which stood out, changing the story form bit by bit, this movie showed just what verball skills can do in politics.

4. Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy

Hollywood can be proud. while our country released Don 2 of which I saw a few people talking about as 'great' or 'the king is back', a week later we had this movie. Probably the best movie ever made about the cold war and a fantstical performance by a boastful cast( Gary Oldman, Benedict Cumberbatch, Tom Hardy, Colin Firth, Mark Strong, etc.), the movie showed crude sophistication prevelant to it true level. this was the movie showing the transferring of cold war documents in an oven - it was the depiction of secrets that made this movie an instant classic, and one which you would have to sink in to understand it to the fullest. And appreciate it.

3. Drive

 A simple plot, a silent hero, a deal gone wrong - that is all Drive is about. But why would never forget it? the style. this was where Ryan Gosling proved that he could be an actio hero a he potrays a mysterious unnamed driver with mysterious character. the stand out scene ws when the protagonist kisses the female lead, shown in a slow fashion, and then turns to break the skull of one of the bad bad guys standing beside them. this showcased the slow, sultry style of cinema to perfection. Reviewers said this to be the 'guy movie of the year'. But i suppose girls will love him even more.

2. Rise of Planet of the Apes

Andy sekis has a right to complain. He was the Gollum, He was the king kong, and now he was Caesar. And this time it you do feel for him that he deserves an oscar. you can feel for the ape caesar as he is loved, then punished, then leads the beginning of a revolution. the landmark scene of the movie is when the apes culminates his anger to shout out 'no!' this was a scene which I can never forget. The CGI effects to show all the apes has been done to perfection. the best part of the movie, though, is the  end credits

1. Harry Potter and the deathly Hallows : Part 2

 theere have been a lot of emotional series finales. Return of the King, Revenge of the sith, etc. Ever does a series come to become a folklore which you would listen aout in ages to come. but Harry Potter was the movie of my age. And I can be proud that this was not the sole reason why this is is in my number 1 spot. This was prrobably th best finales of all times, combining everything into a single ecstatic epic. with the best effects and great performances, this is probably the best book to movie conversions upto date and hence there's no doubt why this is at the top of  my list.